No Saints around Here

No Saints around Here

A Caregiver’s Days

Susan Allen Toth

A moment-by-moment memoir of the difficulty and dedication of caregiving

256 Pages, 5 x 8 in

  • Paperback
  • 9780816692866
  • Published: April 14, 2014
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  • eBook
  • 9781452941301
  • Published: April 1, 2014
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No Saints around Here

A Caregiver’s Days

Susan Allen Toth

ISBN: 9780816692866

Publication date: April 14th, 2014

256 Pages

8 x 5

"While some readers may find the title of Susan Allen Toth’s No Saints around Here unintentionally ironic, it came to seem no more than apt to me. Halfway through the book, I was wondering how many saints could have matched her devotion in the care she gave to her husband or achieved the honesty, humor, and vividness of her moving account." —Garret Keizer, author of Privacy and Help

"That may be the book's greatest value—that caregivers of loved ones reading it will take comfort in knowing that what they are going through has been shared by many others." —Kirkus Reviews

"This is an important book, not just for lonely caregivers but also for us all. It ought to be required reading for anyone in a position to affect funding and social policy to benefit those who toil to care for others." —Star Tribune

"Each time I sat down and opened the book, I felt I was reading a heartfelt letter from a friend." —Books & Culture

"While some readers may find the title of Susan Allen Toth’s No Saints around Here unintentionally ironic, it came to seem no more than apt to me. Halfway through the book, I was wondering how many saints could have matched her devotion in the care she gave to her husband or achieved the honesty, humor, and vividness of her moving account." —Garret Keizer, author of Privacy and Help

"It is an honest and simple telling of her struggles, grief, pain, anger, and even hope as she sought to keep James at home to the very end which she did....I really appreciated this book for its practical wisdom and insight it offers both in my own care giving role and in my work as a clergy. I will be recommending it to others as a guide to help them as care givers and as those who help care givers. I rate this book an ‘outstanding’ read." —Le Padre Ver Livre

"With honesty, humor, and a beautiful and steadfast love for James, Susan carries the reader through all the ups and mostly downs of in-the-trenches caregiving. " —Mainstay

"Read it, read it, whether or not you’re a caregiver. You never know when you might become one." —Dave Wood





When we promise “in sickness and in health,” it may be a mercy that we don’t know exactly what lies ahead. Forcing food on an increasingly recalcitrant spouse. Brushing his teeth. Watching someone you love more than ever slip away day by day. As her husband James’s Parkinson’s disease with eventual dementia began to progress, writer Susan Allen Toth decides she intensely wants to keep her husband at home—the home he designed and loved and lived in for a quarter century—until the end.

No saint, as she often reminds the reader, Toth found solace in documenting her days as a caregiver. The result, written in brief, episodic bursts during the final eighteen months of James’s life, has a rare and poignant immediacy. Wrenching, occasionally peevish, at times darkly funny, and always deeply felt, Toth’s intimate, unsparing account reflects the realities of seeing a loved one out of life: the critical support of some friends and the disappearance of others; the elasticity of time, infinitely slow and yet in such short supply; the sheer physicality of James’s decline and the author’s own loneliness; the practical challenges—the right food, the right wheelchair, the right hospital bed—all intricately interlocking parts of the act of loving and caring for someone who in so many ways is fading away.

“We all need someone to hear us,” Toth says of the millions who devote their days to the care of a loved one. Her memoir is at once an eloquent expression of that need and an opening for others. No Saints around Here is the beginning of a conversation in which so many of us may someday find our voices.

Susan Allen Toth has written for the New York Times, the Washington Post, Harper’s, and Vogue, among other publications. Her many books include Blooming, Ivy Days, My Love Affair with England, England As You Like It, and Leaning into the Wind: A Memoir of Midwest Weather (Minnesota, 2006). A longtime teacher and writer-in-residence at Macalester College, Toth currently divides her time between rural Wisconsin and La Jolla, California.

Contents

Preface

IntroductionNo Saints around HereTogetherRed Flag in the MailboxHis Cold, My ColdLet Me Count the WaysFailing BatterySleeping with a WombatStuff, Stuff, StuffOverloadedThe Nursing Home on the HillTeeth Torture TimeTime on the TundraHow Is James?Priorities: Blue JeansSmiling under WaterBeige Lies, Pink Lies, Purple LiesA Very Short Tooth TaleHanging OnAbsent FriendsNo Skipping to the Last PageMy Adventures with Gentlemen’s PadsThe Voice in the Bathroom CupboardJust a Minute!At the Foot of the Roller CoasterGravyHome, AloneThrough the Hospice DoorTime, AgainOff the Balance BeamWhaddya Know, Joe?ObsessionsThe Last ChristmasSilver AnniversaryThe Net Is Larger Than You Can ImagineAn Unexpected Corner of My NetThe Long PassageCensus DayLiving in a BubbleUnmooredThe Base LineVanishing PerspectiveFrench ToastFirestormA Ring among the Ashes

CodaAcknowledgments